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Christmas C.C. Photoset | BTS

  • Cosplay, costume, makeup and wig by Xarin
  • Photos by Rex Medina
  • Shot last, December 2019

I have a backlog of photos to archive here, but I’ll start with the most recent one–my Christmas C.C. photos. Code Geass is still one of my favorite shows, so I try to represent C.C. when I can. Hopefully I’m able to make her other costumes. The photos were taken in a bnb in Makati, which was also the home of 6 cats.

Unpacking our luggage in our room, and cats already decided they wanna snoop around.
We brought some boxes which we wrapped up to be Christmas presents… Of course, boxes + cats is just a fiasco waiting to happen.

The cats got in the way here and there when we were setting up, but it didn’t bother me so much since I’m a cat person. They were so adorable! ❤

Video of how I made this costume is also up on my Youtube channel, which I hope you find helpful!

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Art and Others

Art: Alice Nakiri Digital Painting

I’ve always been a traditional kind of gal, and I’ve been painting with watercolors since 2006. So I’ve been set in my ways since then, unfortunately. It’s been tough for me to like any other medium, digital included, because I have developed a certain way I paint and I’ve stuck to it through the years, and I like it.

But my brother got a screen tablet, an XP-Pen Artist Pro 12, and he lends it to me quite often. You know, my brother is such a great guy. Whenever he thinks of buying something, such as in this case, he said, “But would you use it too? If I buy it, you have to use it as well and make some art.” He’s not the madamot type. In fact if more people in the family can use an item, he’s more likely to buy it. He’ll even readily lend it to the my boyfie, Rex if he could.

Rex recommended I try out CLIP Studio for my artwork in tandem with the new tab, and it took me almost a year to try to seriously tinker with it to get something that looks like my painting. TL;DR — reading the official CLIP tutorials work far better and it took me reading only 2 tutorial articles to find the settings I want for my style. I was just too lazy to actually read before :v

Here’s the progress with screenshots and the like:

Rough sketch.
Starting some work on the skin. I made a “mistake” trying to do the lines first, so I scrapped the ones here and did them over later. In digital art, people often have the established workflow of lines first – then color. I made a mistake trying the same method when in painting, that isn’t the way things usually are. Usually I lay down the base colors first, and then paint the fine lines for last.
Progress on the hair and such.
I used textures to make the digital canvas look like paper, which CLIP also had a guide about. One of the things I love about painting traditionally is the paper texture, I’m obsessed with trying to buy the nicest papers I can afford.
Finished piece.

Of course as with all my work there’s always a bunch of tiny things I hate about it, but I’m just glad to be able to finish and I quite enjoy coloring!

I’m trying to make some changes in my lifestyle, so I might be doing a bit more writing and art these days, as opposed to taking pictures.

XOXO Xarin.

OOTDs · Personal · Travel Logs

Here Comes the Carnival! Lace Up 2019 Recap + Photos

Last October 5, 2019, I attended my first Lace Up–the yearly lolita gathering for Filipino lolitas organized by the Philippine Gothic Lolita Community. I’ve been a lolita enthusiast for a long time, and wore the fashion more actively back in 2013 and 2014… but I’ve never been to a lolita gathering. I always found it so intimidating, to be honest. What if someone says I’m not lolita enough? It was something I was fine enjoying on my own.

This year though, my SO Rex really encouraged me to go, him being a J-fashion enthusiast himself. He went with me to ease my anxiety a bit. We also found a brand dress from our Baguio trip last May, and it was a shame to not wear it to something, haha. We almost didn’t make it to the event due to personal/family reasons, Rex’s mom being in the hospital. Things have been very stressful with our personal life, so we decided to go to at least unwind a bit.

We got to the venue an hour late as we still had errands to run, but we got there anyway! Just in time to catch the Lolita Coordination talk by bowverlord.

The main attraction of the venue was this carousel-motif backdrop, complete with 3D horsies. This year’s theme is Carnival.

There was a mini-gallery featuring local artists with artwork made for this year’s theme.

Rex wore a coordinate from he all picked out from his own wardrobe, he picked a burgundy shirt to match my dress. Leather collar and earrings are from Jiandra of Dark~Sweet~Soul.

We bought this Der Augenstern “Whisper of Tarot” dress from the night market in Baguio! Rex was actually the one who found it, lucky. It did not come with the waist tie but it was otherwise in mint condition, tag intact. While the Tarot cards were the main design, there were also constellations in the print, in gold. That’s why I decided to wear star-themed accessories with it, including a hairpiece I crammed the night before, haha. If I had any more time, I’d have made new waist ties too.

More pictures from the event, including some lovely coordinates from the other attendees!

It was really fun for our first Lace Up! I was too shy to ask for pics with and of other girls huhu, but everyone I asked was so nice! It’s great to see familiar faces who have always been commenting and encouraging me to attend lolita events as well, even saying, “Oh, you finally made it!” Hahaha. We’ll definitely try to go back next year.

This wraps up this blog post, but if you haven’t yet, make sure to check out my vlog too! Some things are really just best seen thru video.

xoxo Xarin

Cosplay

Opinion: Cosplaying for Money is FINE.

This is an opinion piece. It is meant as a response more to the local cosplay community in the Philippines. If you are from elsewhere, the state of your cosplay community may be different. Take everything with a grain of salt.

Some twelve years ago, I planned to enter the polymer clay hobby. I thought it would be fun and interesting, and I enjoyed creative pursuits. But from the get-go I started the hobby primarily because I wanted to make some money out of it. Earn some money from a hobby that wasn’t yet that mainstream in the country. And I did good, coz I still have a clay business twelve years later. Was it wrong to start a hobby because I wanted to gain a following, and a business?

Of course, the answer is no. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that.

And now, imagine this: you, a cosplayer, meet someone who says they want to cosplay–because they want to be popular, build a brand, and then make an income from it. The very same reason some people might take up a hobby such as crochet or sewing.

Cosplayers will almost always respond this way:

“Oh no! You shouldn’t cosplay for fame or money! Cosplay should only be done for fun, and out of love for the character.”

Then they would quietly judge the person, and proceed to make Facebook posts about it, sharing it the shameful, sacrilegious thing that happened with their cosplayer friends.

I would like to make a case for that and explain why I think cosplaying for fame or money is ABSOLUTELY FINE.

Fame or Money is not “Evil”

First off, fame or money has no moral compass. It is what it is. Someone’s actions and motivations determine whether they are good or evil. But people in society have the connotation that if you want money, you are evil. They especially think this for the arts.

We even stereotype people who have fame or money, as evil. The rich, popular person is the villain. The poor, unpopular sap is the protagonist. This connection is a stereotype that’s been used in society for ages, and therefore they make people think that wanting money or fame = evil. It is not. Money and fame are just what they are; they have no morality. What you do with them is what counts. Some people who desire fame and fortune may actually have a good motivation behind them. Surprise! It isn’t fair to judge their desires when we don’t really know what fuels them.

The Starving Artist Mentality

Society, especially the Filipino society, tends to belittle people in the arts. They expect artists to bleed for their work, but then expect free things or handouts. Some people even think a “shoutout” or “exposure” is ample payment for an artist’s time or output. Once, I’ve seen posts saying:

“If you’re a true artist, you should do it because it’s your passion and because you love your craft and making other people happy. Artists who try to ask for payment are terrible.”

Naturally, this caused outrage. Artists should of course be compensated, and if they want to become professional, paid artists, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that too.

But for some reason, some of my cosplayer peers who think artists should be paid do a complete 180 when it comes to cosplayers. They think people shouldn’t cosplay for the money. They think they’re superior than people with a patreon, or ko-fi… “because you should only cosplay for fun”. Some people think they’re superior because they’re not charging for photosets or fansigns. Some adopt a “holier than thou attitude”, because they don’t earn from cosplay, and are therefore in their opinion, “real cosplayers”. “I’m doing it purely for the art, so I’m better.” But you bet that any one of these people, if offered to be a guest in a convention with paid fees, will absolutely jump at the chance.

I saw a cosplayer once take a jab at other cosplayers who charge for fansigns, or require donations, or only do it for top fans. She said she can’t believe cosplayers these days, and she said she does fansigns for free, as if her doing it for free makes her “better”. Here’s the reality: she doesn’t do it for “free”. A cosplayer who does fansigns for a fee gains that: the payment fee. A cosplayer who does fansigns for “free” gains the attention, which in business is also a viable currency–people flocking to her asking for “fansign pls”.

When does a Cosplayer become “Bad”?

I’ve now made my case that earning money or wanting to earn money in itself isn’t bad at all. No one is a “fake cosplayer” or “bad” or “below you” or “selling out” because they’re earning money from prints or Patreon or not just doing it “for fun”. Am I a fake sculptor because I strategically try to earn money from it? No.

In application to cosplayers–them having patreon or ko-fi isn’t “bad”. Selling prints isn’t bad. Selling exclusive content isn’t bad. But if you are hyper-focused on money and fame without even working on the product–your own cosplays–well, that’s when I personally think you’d be a fraud.

You’re selling blurry phone photos overpriced? You don’t deliver on your patreon rewards? You use your ko-fi money for something else and not the ko-fi goal you said you’d use it for? You’re stealing someone else’s content as your own? You use your fame and your platform to bully others? You look down on and shame other cosplayers who aren’t as good as you or don’t hold the same ideals as you? You’re not just bad cosplayer; you’re a bad person.

The Real Reason why you Shouldn’t Cosplay for Fame, or Money.

With all this being discussed, I still wouldn’t tell people that it’s advisable to cosplay or fame, or money. It’s fine if you want to. It’s not morally wrong, and don’t let other people tell you that it is. But the reality is it’s not advisable. Why?

Cosplay is a high risk, low reward business. Let’s say, you want to be a cosplayer with thousands of likes, selling merch, being invited as a guest in conventions. That requires building a fanbase by continuously making content and crawling your way down from the bottom. It means spending hundreds, or maybe thousands of $$$ on costumes, wigs, photoshoots, and other expenses.

Before I have a photo that’s good enough to sell as a print, I have already spent thousands on the rent for the venue, and the costume. Before someone can be invited as a guest, they probably have already cosplayed a dozen (or more characters), spending thousands on those costumes. This hobby is NOT cheap. I make my own cosplays, therefore I don’t pay anyone for labor, but I still find it expensive and most especially time-consuming.

It’s a lot of money burnt before you have any hope of making any money back. That’s the real reason why you should reconsider being a “cosplay celebrity”. You’re fortunate if you’re able to earn enough money just to be able to afford your next cosplay. A lot of international cosplay personalities do not quit their “real jobs”, and treat the cosplay business as a sideline–for good reason.

The reality is that the cosplay hobby is such a money pit, that more often than not you have to be super passionate to keep going at it, and really just love and enjoy the hobby. Most of those popular cosplayers are popular because they didn’t quit–because they were passionate about the hobby–and only gained the fanbase and income as residual effect. But if you’re interested in a purely business motive–It’s a very heavy investment, with a very high risk with how tough the competition is.

The TL;DR

Cosplayers wanting to earn money or actively trying to earn money or fame isn’t bad at all. Isn’t it great for people to be able to earn money while doing what they love? And if you meet someone and they say they want to cosplay for attention, or fame, or the possibility of stardom and income–that’s their motive, and it’s not for you to judge. You might just want to warn them that it’s not all rainbows and roses, and the chance of profit is low. But still, everyone cosplays for a different reason. Why someone else cosplays is their choice, and I think it’s better if we focus on ourselves, and reflect on why we cosplay–and not spend time policing other people’s motives.

Cosplay · Cosplay · Photosets · Portfolio

Sae Niijima Cosplay Feature

  • Cosplay, costume, makeup and wig by Xarin
  • Tattoo art by Rex Medina
  • Photos by Rex Medina, Jipri
  • Shot at Chateau de Tagaytay, July 2019
  • Special thanks to Alcazone, Nananeue, and Ady Laine for support / shoot companions.

Shadow!! Sae was a design that has been on my cosplay plans for some two years… I really liked the design from the moment I saw it, and I wanted an excuse to for once, wear dark makeup. Most the characters I cosplay have minimal/natural makeup, so a lot of times I feel like I’m doing the same thing over and over, and not really transforming. So this was really a different experience for me.

It was also my first time working with this fabric. Write-up of how I made this costume is in my 3SK blog, here.

Chateau de Tagaytay isn’t exactly a casino, but I thought the dark, brooding vibe of the historical house lent well to the photos. I’ll be making a write up about the venue and our shoot BTS soon.

See how I made this costume here. See full album of my Sae cosplay here. See more of my cosplays here. If any of my content has helped you or entertained you, please consider donating on ko-fi!

OOTDs · Personal

OOTD: Vintage Beer Girl

I’ve recently fallen into the trap of Instagram vintage dress stores, haha! It all started when I followed starsfashion.ph , an IG store catering to vintage/thrift dresses. They occasionally have Lolita or Hime dresses, so I keep my eyes peeled. I made my first purchase when I saw this brown dress. It reminded me so much of medieval bar maid outfits, and I’m a sucker for those.

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Cosplay · Photosets · Portfolio

Eirika and Ephraim Cosplay Feature

  • Eirika cosplay by Xarin. Ephraim cosplay by Rex.
  • Costumes and Eirika armor by Xarin.
  • Weapons and Ephraim armor by Rex.
  • Photos by Peppy Salita, Alcazone.
  • Debuted at AFA Singapore 2019.
  • Shot at Davao, March 2019. Special thanks to Tare for letting us ride the horses on their farm!

I wrote about this photoshoot and the Davao trip we had for this shoot, which you can read here. I’ve yet to blog about last year’s AFA SG, but I’ll get to that (and a construction process post) soon! Rex and I have always joked about cosplaying the twins–the days are always full of “DISGUSTING” jokes, haha. We don’t really ship the twins, though–we mostly relate to each of their personalities.

See Peppy’s full album of our cosplay here. See how I made Eirika’s skirt in this Youtube tutorial. See more of my cosplays here. If any of my content has helped you or entertained you, please consider donating on ko-fi!

Personal · Photoshoot BTS · Travel Logs

Davao Cosplay/Travel Trip ’19

Last March ’19, I traveled with my boyfie, Rex, and cosplay friends (and also a power couple) Erie and Ash, and cosplay photog Peppy to Davao to catch up and shoot with our friend Tare, and her husband Paul. We all actually met thru Fire Emblem cosplays! I met Erie and Ash Cosmania of 2016, when they were cosplaying Sakura and Kaze, and Tare later joined a cosplay group I did, where she cosplayed as Cordelia. Back then I mentioned how I would LOVE to cosplay Fire Emblem characters on horseback–and surprise! Tare said they had horses on their farm in Davao and invited us to come over. Fast forward one year, and we actually flew to Davao and did it!

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Funshoot / Boudoir · Portfolio

Golden Glow – Funshoot

Photos from a quick photoshoot I did with my SO, Rex. He also did the styling. This was just a quick photo practice for him and me, but we did like a bunch of the photos that came out of it!

  • Model/ makeup by Xarin
  • Photos and styling by Rex Medina
  • Shot at Urban Deca Towers, March 2019

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